Tuesday, 10 March 2015



If it wasnt for my brother getting me out of the domestic violent relationship, called a marriage, I wouldnt be alive today.

how many woman die every year from domestic violence

the point I wanted to make was a women when mentally abused doesnt know what has taken place systematically over a period of time, and even if everyone is telling her she finds it difficult to believe she is being mentally abused, with the usuall expectation that things will get better and if there is a good lifestlye then people are reluctant to be sympathetic.

domestic violence isnt just about the scars on the body its the mental abuse that noone sees.

I was at work one day and my friend told me about her dad's sister and how she had begged her dad to take her out of her marriage, but it had been too late and she had died.

we were in the locker room and I didnt know what to say !

we woud go the gym at lunch time and try to keep fit and eat healthy and everything elsa the corporate lifestyle involves but the reality of life is hard to escape.

from the family attempting to poison me to having been left alone in the car park after attending a wedding wearing lots of gold jewellery, I decided to focus on the problems of palestine and all everyone cares about is how much money they have.

it was the usual story, maybe there had been some compassion at the beginning of the relationship but that seems hard to believe, he was always poor and I mostly paid for everything, once married there was no end to the greed and jealousy of the family, so naturally most people bury themselves in work to gain, some sanity, he then wanted to start his own business and eventually when he had made sure he had used all my money on the premise of starting this business he walked out of the house..

it wasnt until I went to the hairdresser and as she spoke about her own sister and said there is always another women, that the truth hit home, 

so after an almost 7 year affair within the marriage of 10 years, after having made sure he was a good person for 7 years previous to the marriage, when he casually attempted to pull her out of a hat, with the comments, I just met someone, there isnt really anything elsa to say except, oh I see !  
I had made a studio for him in the home and he would often bring back women, lock the door, so there was never the need for motel or hotel, having been pushed together in a relationship with priya, and constantly been watched by mostly the seikh people in the town whom were trying to keep these two together, so they can keep finances and promote a culture of haram, gigs, ect. then there is the drugs, the constant use of alchol and constant load music in the house. but the good times outweigh the bad times, except if there is no good times. I did suggest ending the marriage at times, he was desperate to stay together until the day my bank account was empty which I stopped refilling and realised it was time for him to go.

then ofcourse, many a vulture gathers...

but the abuse didnt stop there, he would call me say he was watching me from the window, ask the children what I was wearing, where I had been that day.

swearing at me one day nonstop in texts, I called the police and they told me to come into the station the next day and he would be prosecuted, the last thing anyone wants is the father of their children to be arrested and to be put in prison, but it would have been better, but its not a solution.

when I stopped answering his phone calls he told the children, I wouldnt let them speak to him.

acakessboxcompany.com make a website to tell women their money is their own, for girls which grow into women. boys copy the behaviour of the abusive dad which is only copied behaviour, but learn such abusive behaviour to be normal.

I dont know whats more frightining when girls know everything about your life, or where exactly in your home they have been when you were not around. I would watch through the window as he brought her into the house when he thought I was asleep and wonder what kind of a person does something like this, there is so much dirt on everyone they would have to be really stupid.

and kids can do whatever they want,  they arent sure what is so wrong with that. I hope my children are older and able to understand more now, because the only reason I didnt say anything before, except to make authorities aware was to protect the children.

I sometimes get asked, if I am going back, everyone elsa sat in he back of the car, except for ilford and yawn ...and... and...tweddling thumbs.

I hope that, this has cleared up most people's questions and really hope people would stop giving advise in the street about something of which they have no knowledge.

my life has never been better, so I am happy I live in this small luxury apartment in central london, close to my family.

Monday, 9 March 2015

what can be done to help pakistan develop

I know it almost seems like an almost impossible situation, but what can really be done to help the country to improve.

for people that would like to help pakistan and not just perform activities which constitute part of a game, poverty needs to be erradicated. this doesnt just mean passing your hard earned money over to charities which are more preoccupied with filling their own pockets with cash and spending charitable money on errecting buildings in the name of the organisation whilst the poor still go hungry and homeless.

of those that I have known that regularly make contributions to charities, its a very different story surprisingly when someone is on the receiving end. for people in need its very difficult for people to exact these finances.

for that reason i urge you to not pass your money to charitable organisations and personally try to hand the money or see to it that the needy get the finances.

a person with the right tools can earn a living for life, rather than feeding that person for a day.

ideas for mothers day

As this blog isnt read by only muslims and if you are celebrating mothers day, then here are some ideas
here is a fragrance hat has only been launched a few days ago
kiss and blush lisptick and combined blusher by syl, great for travelling
dont forget those fighting for the freedom of palestine when out and about shopping
pink coat, light and fresh for spring come summer
breakfast smoother for mother rather than a fryup

sumsung notes 4 comes out in a month

brunch or dinner for mothers day

keep up with the new salmon coat for spring

Keep up with the new salmon coat for spring

its acutually a pink and... but we are calling it salmon in keeping with the theme.

sunday tea, smoked salmon and salmon pate

sunday tea

smoked salmon with salmon pate.
layer the bottom of the tin or dish you are using with smoked salmon
mix together butter, soft cheese, chives and cooked salmon.

pu this in the fridge overnight and serve on toast when ready.

its delicious for sunday tea, remove rings to wash up after.

Sunday, 8 March 2015

more coffee please

If I had a coffe shop I would imagine it would look something like this..

cant imagine why was asked to google for safari !

its always nice to tip, where tipping is deserved.

I would also have a children's menu and 

the children would also be able to colour in the menu, but I would also have colouring pencils and crayons too.

why it is a good idea to have 2 children close together and how to cope

coming soon

attitude amongst asian girls

we went to hagendas in leicester square, it was a while ago and its really nice to be in central london, it was a nice warm evening and there was almost just a few people outside so we did not have to wait long and were seated really quickly.

I love going to this place and service has always been really good and the staff are really pleasant. the menu changes so its kept interesting and there are special recipes for events.

we sat and ordered and as we ate the ice creams there was a crowd that gathered outside, as it did on occasion . its a very daunting, scary and overwhelming experience for people that are not used to, or have not been familiarised to this type of behaviour. it quickly became very apparent that a crowd had gathered and were starring and giving dirty looks, "thats what girls do, my brother remarked ", maybe upto the point that you are at uni, but surely after that, that attitude and behaviour needs to stop,  and it seems to be asian girls now, more so than any other. although it is everyone at some point or other. this needs to stop, there doesnt seem to be any other group of people that bitch amongst themselves and treat one another in this way. if you dont have something positive to say then do not say anything at all.

the problem with someone presenting herself as a muslim and giving an inaccurate impression of what a muslim is, creates hostility amongst others because then everyone gets judged as that deviant impression of that which has been shown to be a muslim. you cant help but feel protective over muslim brothers and sisters, especially when they are so young, whether they are brand building, linking instaragram to dead links to be filled in later or even letting the public into their homes. 

mimiking the kardasians. the kardishians are not muslims, because the kardashians would look much better without such nude exposure which isnt what we are about, they have been in bed with their brothers friends and the younger sisters have been catwalking topless and no, not anyone given the opportunity would do that as khloe stated on twitter. sweet girls you can learn from their conversations, but only if you can put it into perspective.
there are always people that think that they are the next beauty queen as there are many here and it shut everyone, which was great and put us on the map, not that we were not on the map before and I dont think the boys have ever had such positive sports role model and ofcourse pride is haram

if in 5 years time, if all your footage is edited and uploaded and your internet connections stopped and you pinned for something, then ? at least you cant say that noone ever warned you of the dangers.

any muslim would not appreciate constant perving from the mass general public, because thats what the mass general public do, if not to your face.

oh yeah and dont forget to save the data.

dont be a part of the game, dont play the game, be better than the game.

Tuesday, 3 March 2015



 eating and exercise
keeping a video diary

training specific, but there must be a baseline training that the specific is added to

weight loss combined with resistance training and muscle building or maybe lose the weight first and resistance train after

Monday, 2 March 2015

safety tips on how to survive being famous

1.if you are involved in a car chase, beep your horn and attract attention to yourself, especially if other cars are trying to run you off the road, try to get to your destination if it is close or stop and call the police and always try to quote reg numbers.

2. if you're car skids lock the steering wheel in the opposite direction which should stop the car from skidding further.

3. if you're post is going missing it will take longer to resolve this issue as sometimes its the staff and very rarely general public that has intervened, in some cases mail arrives open, not by accident and mail has been read, happens all the time, so be aware of whats expected.

4. dont be surprised if people look through you're garbage it has been known to happen, more than once

5. phones are always bugged by media and many times by government, especially if you have created a big culture of followers.

6. depending on the level of follows at the time, public transport and traffic will be directed and manipulated accordingly. if its an event you may be escorted by police or security and if you going to see someone which goes against what the western media wants you to do ,, then public transport will be controlled to cause a hindrance and it has even been known to have been stopped

7. free promotional products are always sent for promotional reasons to create publicity by the promoters

8. bad neighbourhoods are almost impossible to visit if you have previously had friends or family there, as you will be subjected to constant abuse ect

9. shopping expeditions must be the strangest, the running commentary starts from the minute you leave your home,  to she getting on the bus, to the train, she's in this store, now she is leaving this store to now she is going to this shop, mostly it is about just tracking movements, sometimes it may be about safety, the complete goldfish experience. so movements are always made to look random and unplanned, thats how you play them at their own game.

10. dont worry if someone opens the door when you have parked up at the traffic lights and peers in, says hi to x, because its just someone checking to see if you have any of his bitches in the car. keep doors locked when driving and at traffic lights.

11. funniest of saddest must be when you are doing some research or shopping for a blog, you are getting together information and you havent even been able to get the product home and spies are out and have  already written a blog and pinned it to a western celeb... in the mass media, controlled promoting.

12. put a blog title up , even in draft form because all your emails ect are being read anyway and the next day someone would have blogged about that title. this is a good way to gain information about a subject, like storage in the home which you were not really planning to blog about anyway.

13. networks always temperamental on what you are doing.

14. yep, they all have underlying motives.

15. internet speeds are always, always slowed down, especially when you are working in draft mode, just before you are about to upload, someone will upload something similar or the word weirdo which you created will be added to the dictionary as another's creation.

16. the third time we were involved in a car chase, was again with the kids, in the morning, on woodford high road this time, when I was living in woodford, on the way to school, it seems to be the time when the thugs know when you will leave your home. with cctv cameras everywhere, its surprising where the police is in all this.

17. it is possible and the technology has existed for a long time where a signal can be sent to the satellite and to the i.p address and all files and information copied from computer, so if in doubt write it down.

18. people will and always do take things out of your bag, so always get bags with zips, especially when travelling and lock them.

19.safe houses or emergency meeting points, you never know when you might need one

20. when talking to the police, they said they could track any phone with two hours, maybe its quicker

21. one of the local hospitals put crap on medical records which was discovered unexpected and rectified

22. its a sad fact hat people will try to overcharge you all the time, you may decide to pick up a takeaway on you way home and you will be told its £500, thoughts that come to mind are why not charge a round £1000.

23. schools will over attemp to overcharge and try to dismiss the fact that you have been charged at all and reluctant to admit their own error and I dont know what it is about children's lunch boxes, everyone wants to steal the children's lunch boxes.

24. watch out for the behaviour of people around you, dont be surprised if you get arrested when attempting to pick up the children from school because bitches are everywhere.

25. then there is always the possibility of being arrested at friends homes, even if you have known the friends all of your life, but the friends may not always necessarily be totally to blame and involved,  they may have been fed a few tales, but arrests can also take place in this way

26. dont talk to yourself when out and about, because someone is always lip reading you on cctv camera.

27. always reach for those sun glasses even when shopping in the evening

28. watch out for the traffic wardens which will follows and chase you, especially if you are in a new environment


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